Had It Been You

I wonder how my life will be in 50 years
Will I laugh at grandchildren
Rolling around on the floor?
Will I look up to see my wife?
Will I imagine her love over the years?
Or will I wonder what might have been
Had it been you?
All the love and affection that I gave to her
Anniversaries and Christmas parties
Walks in the park
Snowmen and warm mittens
Had it been you?
Laughing together, then crying in unison
As we held our newborn son
Sailing together on salty water
With the wind blowing affectionately
Kissing sunburned skin
Taking road trips to places unknown then laughing together
At the wonders we found
Had it been you?
Eating popcorn and M&M’s in a dark theater
Then working out the next day
Watching her surprise as she opened a tiny box
To see a shining diamond atop a band of gold
Had it been you?
Being deeply engrossed in conversation
While trying to keep
Spaghetti sauce off our chin
Staring at stars across the sky
Like so many angel eyes
Trying to remember our first date
Sleeping late
On Saturday, then making love when we awoke
Had it been you?
Being amazed when we saw a shooting star
Finding sand dollars on the shore
Then watching her make them into necklaces
The smell of cookies baking
Gazing in anticipation at the silhouette
Behind he glass shower door
Had it been you?
Watching a storm flash across the sky
And feeling safe together
Rubbing her back with oil
Carving pumpkins and dressing up at Halloween
Before we had a family
Then borrowing someone else’s kids
To go trick-or-treating
Had it been you?
Saying “to heck with the health kick”
Then eating a box of Twinkies while watching cartoons
Pondering the meaning of life
Then saying a prayer we got it right
Had it been you?
Counting all the pennies in the jar
Then going out to buy something fun
Going to church on Sunday
Watching as she delicately applied makeup
In the bathroom mirror
Packing a lunch and then eating it under a tree
On a lazy afternoon
And will the small voice keep repeating
Had it been you, had it been you
Had it been you?